well guys, i think tink i haf a mental problem.... Nowadays, i've been having loose thots tt cloud my mind and make my mood sway like trees in monsoon winds...
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so u might be wondering wat loose thots tt i might haf... well.. the thots are abt everything.. :) my life, happy stuff, unhappy stuff, stuff tt i'm afraid, stuff i like, thots of my future, thots of my Existence, ppl i've met, ppl i will probably meet... the list goes on....~
well loose thots are harmless most of the time... but wat if they come in a swarm?? i say it will practically swallow u up... mentally of cos... well i'm sure tt most of you wun haf this kind of problem but for me, one who likes to let his mind wonder... okok... simply say its day dream hoho!! the tendency is very high.... ok well i will nt exactly say its day dream, day dream means u jus laze arnd, imagining fantasies in your biological server of yours... however, mine's different... the things i tink of, not imagine, are very much in relevance to my daily live or my life... i can't say much of it, its jus too overwhelming...~
well this manifestation of thots is not sumthing i will deem healthy but i haf no choice against it i'm afraid... it robs me of my situational judgment, sumtimes even common sense... well very bad i noe... but thru years of 'experience', i am very much in control of myself...~
wats contradicting is, instead of suppressing it whenever i can, i allow it to manifest... well it brings a wave of ecstasy, mental ecstasy i call it... and somehow it brings a sense of comfort.... whenever i'm upset with anything... tts y sumtimes u see me quiet sumtimes... and rather solemn... =)~
Well i've come to the end of this post.... tata~
2 comments:
it's normal to feel uncertainty and denial. and it's alright to let your mind wonder at times, just keep it cool and don't dwell on it.
whatever it is, time will tell.
This may be what the tradition ppl called it. 心魔.
ridiculous it may sound, but the defination of it suits what you have describe.
everyone, every single one 'daydream' and also has this '心魔'. It is just how serious or mild it is, or how it developed.
If it is analytical and rational, then its still ok. but if it is more of a hinder then good, then it should be curbed.No one one can curb it in 1 day.
ever heard of the story that some people worry the sky drops?
A forest fire starts from a small spark of flame.
Some 'comfort' or estacy feeling can be appealing now, but in the long run? will it affect your life?
'experince'? 10 years? 20 years? we have at least another 25 years to go man. smoking is 'good' too. good feeling.
To put it simply, everyone 胡思乱想, u,me, everyone. but at the end of the day, reality is the main thing.And cognitive thinking is more vital then emotional.
Lastly, it is 100% possible to improve on the situation. The bottom line is, does one willing to do it? The determination counts.
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